my saturday in pictures

breathe with a full chest

i am more about posting pretty pics tonight than i am writing words. iespecially pretty pictures of pretty clothes! (i am a clothes whore). it's a beautiful almost-spring day in california. the kitchen is clean, the cats are fed, and here's a little bit about what is living in the mind of pamh:

*2 of my dearest friends had their first baby girl today. libby rose. she is the cutest thing ever. i am so excited for them. they are both are so adorable so it is just logical they would make an adorable baby. i have been thinking about babies lately and whether having a baby someday is something i want. i have always thought i have, but the closer i get to 40, the more i wonder if it is ever going to happen. my conclusion? it's not a decision i am going to make today.

*day 1 of my eating healthy was shot all to hell in less than an hour. donna brought in all kinds of cheese and bread from her trip to bodega bay, and that was all it took. the garlic was the best ever. i may be the first person to actually gain weight the first day of their diet.

*i am thinking about taking some day trips on the weekends. the weather is starting to be so gorgeous, and i am so full of cabin fever.

*my new fave food: onion bagel, avocado, tomato, bean sprout, and alfalfa. yum!

*i am thinking about taking a yoga class. there is this cool studio i have been researching online. i have been interested in doing this ever since i came out here, but for some reason, i just haven't taken the time or the money to just do it. this is pamh taking charge of her health. step 1: stay away from the cheese. step 2: take a yoga class.

*i am going to start studying some meditation exercises. again, this is something i have been wanting to do for awhile. i seriously need to learn how to take some quiet time. and breathe. deeply.

happy tuesday!!

happy happy joy joy

hard to believe it is already march. hard to believe this is my first blog of this new year. i am seriously feeling spring in the air. i love this time of year. i love it so much that i usuay start wearung my spring clothes way too early. i also do the same thing at the end of the summer when fall is on the horizon. i sense a pattern here.

here are some of the random updates of my life:

*i went to see swingin' with sinatra yesterday at the slo little theatre. it is the first time i have been there since how to succeed wrapped at the end of december. it felt good. it was great to see everybody, and the show kicked ass.

*it has been a full year now since i spent 2 days in the ER and ended up having my right ovary removed in april. i have been fighting my insurance company most of this time trying to get them to pay the ER bills. i lost. it sucks.

*i have been sucked deeply into the world of reality tv. my favorites thus far: tori and dean, keeping up with the kardashians, khoe and kourtney take miami, kendra, and bill and giuliana. i really should be concerned about myself. i'm not.

*i am not going to be able to go home for christmas eve this year. i am actually going home a week earlier so at least i will get to be home some for the holidays. i have very mixed emotions about it. i have never not spent a christmas eve without my brother and sister-in-law. i have looked forward to this one day of the year for as long as i can remember. i am trying not to dwell on it because after all, christmas is still almost a year away. but i have to admit, when i think about it, it hurts. it was so shitty the way it all came down and really not worth writing about since it will just make me angry again. *sigh* maybe i will go to midnight mass this year since that is always something i have always wanted to do.

*one of my really good friends is having her first baby boy next month. her baby shower was yesterday. i am so sad that i am not able to be there. it's hard being on the other side of the country, so far away from everybody in my life that i love. but i really do love living in california and love this new chapter of my life. it gets easier the longer i am here.

*i am re-decorating the apartment. i *finally* put some pics up on the walls. when i first moved

here, i had no intention of staying in the apartment this long. almost a year and a half later, i am still here, and for the time being, it is the most convenient place for me. i absolutely adore being only 5 minutes from work, and this apartment is nicer and cheaper than a lot of other places in the area i could be living. i have not updated "my look" since i first started living on my own. it's kind of fun. i just got a new comforter for the bed and am going to hang up some curtains next weekend (the cats have destroyed the blinds). other items on my "wish list": a new mattress, a bookshelf, this adorable chair i have been lusting over at pier one, a slip cover for the couch, and a small table for the bedroom. the key is color. i am all about bright colors right now. happy happy joy joy colors.

*i am thinking i really need to do something with my spare time. something to help others. it occurs to me that i can live a pretty self-centered existence. i mean, re-decorating my apartment is fun and something i want to do for me, but i just feel i shoud do something outside of myself. first step: volunteering for the no-kill cat shelter. i have a lot of love for my little furry children, and i think i have enough left in me to spread some to the less fortunate.

*diet time again. i have gained so much weight that i am just a little sick of myself. above and

beyond that, i just want to be healthy. *sigh*

*i am planning on getting a a new tattoo

happy sunday!