taking matters into my own hands

they should just crown me queen of the world and get it over with.

i learned a new skill this weekend. i ripped up the carpet in my living room all by myself. actually, it's not hard at all. the hard part is trying to rip it up with the furniture still in it. also, i am of the firm belief that tack strips and staples down the center of the room are straight from the pit of hell. anyway, i was doing well until it came time to remove the carpet from the house. it all just came up in one huge piece, and there was no way i was getting it out by myself. thank god for my cousin and her boyfriend who answered my distress call at 9:30 on a friday night. i have to add that the floors are so beautiful, i could have just cried. seriously, it is a crime against humanity that such a beautiful floor has been covered for so many years. it is in almost perfect condition. there is some water discoloration over by the front door. the worst part is there is a large almost perfectly round black stain over by the window. it looks as if something has burned it. i remember back in the 80's my parents had one of those floor televisions sitting in that spot. that is the same t.v i can remember vividly laying in front of and watching sid fairgate die on the cross for our sins. anyway, i am pleased with the floor and even more pleased with myself for getting the carpet up without killing myself or any of my animals. my next goal is to get it pulled up in the hallway. my poor aching back and hands will have to recover first. my next project: knocking bricks down in the kitchen. i am just ready to kick some ass! all i have to say about the kitchen is thank gawd for duct tape. god bless mary heater.

speaking of mary heater, i have been dreaming about her a lot lately. i have not done that in a long time. the dreams are not bad or anything. it's just that i will be having these nonsense dreams, and all of the sudden, there she will be. i figure it's because the five year anniversary of her death is coming up next month, and she is just on my mind. i can't believe she has really been gone that long, but in some ways, it actually seems like she has been gone much longer. i will write more about that later.

i finally deleted my dad's cell phone number from my phone. i had just never been able to bring myself to do it before now. it actually wasn't nearly as hard as i thought it would be. i also deleted the number of my crazy friend who i have not spoken to all summer. that was a really good feeling. it was just a sign to me that i had really let go.

the big ul/uk game is tomorrow. my cousin invited me over for nachos and to watch the game. i'm not a football fan at all, but it sounds fun. my sister and her soulmate that she met in prison might be there. that's worth the trip out there just to see that. seriosuly, you cannot make this shit up.

i am still working in the office. we had a meeting on thursday, and there is still no end in sight. i still hate it. it's just messed up a lot of things. oh well. that's just all i really have to say about it at this point.

i was quite amused yesterday over john mccain's choice of a running mate. i will go on record as to saying i think it was a brilliant move. risky yet brilliant. i may not be john mccain's #1 fan, but i will have to say the race just got a hell of a lot more interesting.

that's all of random saturday thoughts!